Saturday, September 6, 2008

Of not-so-lucky-time-of-life

This post is for me to get some things straight with myself, and I am sharing this with the blog so I don't just think of trying to straighten things out but actually do them and know that I have done them.

Not getting accommodation on campus was a bummer. I was relying on it. I was relying on my luck. Apparently I am not proving very lucky these days. So, no more lottery tickets for me soon!
I've got a few options; I can either bunk with friends and keep switching as soon as I start becoming a pain in their asses or I can take up a place of my own or I can stay as a paying guest over my friend's house. Too many problems with each...ah...not in mood to straighten them out now!

I am simply putting on more and more weight. Everyday I look in the mirror and I feel ugly and fat. But you know what, I am not completely to be blamed. The blame has to be shared by my friends, who eat around me all the time and my shoes because they have gone into hiding! Don't know what to do about it, till I manage a place to stay.

My scholarship money suddenly disappeared! It vanished. I am almost sure that the ATM machine ate it. One day my bank account was totally loaded and the other, I was left with no penny to spare. It was amazing. So I need to figure out a way to fill my pockets. Too tired now-brain going to explode, so saving it for a better time.

I want to study, I really do but I can never get to doing that unless there's like a test or a submission (which hasn't happened till now). I want to improve my grades, not passionately enough but I still do, though everytime I think of studying, the idea of watching Gilmore Girls or sleeping or going out or meeting friends or just sitting and staring at the ceiling takes over and I end up not even opening my books. I have to do something about it soon!

Alright, I guess those are my only problems at the moment. Had I been writing this post like 2 weeks back, issues with friends and parents would have come up too, but those seem to have been settled magically, and I am hoping so will all the above mentioned problems-on their own-somehow-please!

2 comments:

CK said...

yes.. life seems better now i guess? With you getting a room alright. Money - woh toh pair ki dhool hai. Aaj hai toh kal nahi.

shifali said...

Well seems like in my case: aaj nahi aur kal bhi nahi!