“I want to be Divya Bharati!” Yes, I think that was the first time ever I thought about my future and I was five or six years old. By the time I was seven, my dreamed evolved; now I wanted to be Miss Universe. Then an astronaut – Kiran Bedi – a doctor – divorce lawyer (so I could get Shahrukh Khan to divorce Gauri) – Shahrukh’s wife – army officer – a social worker and the list is endless.
Well, yeah so that’s what I see when I close my eyes and when I open them I see a question staring right into my face – ‘How are you going to get there?’
Lately, I’ve been having doubts regarding my latest ambition of becoming a pilot, because if I am not able to secure any financial grant for it (which is highly likely considering that my grades are not extraordinary) becoming a pilot would only mean starving my family for a whole year after which I can PERHAPS pay them back (you know how the job market is!)
If I decide to go into an engineering firm or sorts, how do I know I won’t want to leave the second day and that I’ll enjoy there? I fear this since I am known for bailing out on things after a few months/weeks/days/hours! Though I have had pretty good reasons for kissing goodbyes to all the things I started, yet it’s difficult to deny my behavior. I wish someone could just come up to me and tell me what path should I choose and I would realize that there’s no better option than that. *Dreamy eyes* I am tired of thinking about the typical ‘What do I wanna be?’ question!
This might sound sadist (which I sometimes tend to be) but I so hope everyone my age is going through the same mind boggling thought!
Oh, and I am also interested in creative fields, but I hardly think I’ll stick to it (or that’s at least what my kin/kith think).
1 comment:
If it makes u feel any better:... Even though I am not your age (much elder) I go thru the same thinking process everyday.
I wanna do something exciting, something fun and not this stupid 9 to 6 job. But as my bad luck would have it, MY PARENTS have already boasted about me and my job to their entire family, that I cant even dream to quit. I am the only child that they are so proud of :)))))
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