Amplified Silence

Things are going the way they should; the way they are; the way I want them to. Yet there’s this feeling of discontentment. The reason for this is not obscure to me; though I might be too aghast to blurt it, even when I’m by myself, alone; lonely, that is what I feel today and felt yesterday and the day before that and... (As a matter of fact I’ve been around a lot of people lately so I don’t feel deserted because I have no one to hang out with, it’s something else! Besides, staying alone has never been a worriment. So, the option of staying aloof is ruled out as the cause of my fretfulness.)

I miss a couple of people today.

Though I thought naming people in my blog would be forbidden yet I have to let Akshay know that I really wish he was here; he’s the one guy (the only person in this world) I can talk to about anything and everything and not feel stupid after that for telling him how I felt. He seems to be listening ( =p ) and understanding whatever I tell him. Yes, you might call me selfish and desirous for wanting him to be here only so that I feel better; but what the hell, it’s just a wish!

Second day: just on time (again) - got soaked on the way (it was pouring like nobody's business) - did my homework in office - deleted the file i was working on for so long (who would say i slept well last night?!) - got fever - am starving (it's lunch time)
Hope rest of the day goes smooth as well =p

First day: just on time for office - LOT of work - heavy lunch - only 3 hours of sleep - slight hangover - long day - slept before mid night!

Haywire High Spirits

I will not say I was commendable but I was not pathetic as well. I was a blameless host, but my sister seems to think otherwise (she definitely does not put herself in somebody else’s shoe).

Some friends are annoyed with me, when I’ve been trying my level best to handle things with the right balance (and trust me seeing the situation this is an ace bargain).

Parents ensure that they find one reason or the other for being the ground of scolding their child (agreed they know more than us, but they must understand that kids will learn only by mistakes and not by lectures).

I get tired (physically) too often and too early these days. Showing sister around cannot be the deduction because straying was never a botheration to me. Yes, shopping might be it! To hell with the Great Singapore Sale!

Am exhausted, of trying to keep the mind and the relationships calm. Hope everything is being handled when I wake up tomorrow morning. Am literally exhausted! Goodnight…